I haven’t posted much the past year and so much has happened since I stopped updating my blog.
This time last year my dear father was diagnosed with emphysema caused from exposure to asbestos. We all understood he could possibly become ill but our fears became a nightmare when he was officially diagnose with stage three small cell lung cancer in April 2011.
After my fathers cancer diagnosis my thoughts about life and family changed and I found myself traveling to see him as much as possible. The emotional roller was very trying as we all watched my once strong father bravely fight this scary disease. I’m sorry to say he lost his battle at 5:40 am on October 24, 2011 and I was lucky enough to be there holding his hand.
During his illness I decided to start using this page as a business site and stop blogging because I was too busy and personally invested in family issues. But now I’m back. I deleted all the business post and starting from scratch. I started my site as a way to write and share my life with the world even if the only one reading it is me. This page is something I wanted to do then and now I know its something I need, my safe place to go and be myself.
So…….. I’m back bad grammar and all! 
I am so sorry for your loss. I lost my dad 6 years ago, and blogging has helped me to process those feelings and memorialize so many great memories. Really sad for you. But you sound like you are in a good place. I wondered where you have been
Thank you. With my dad being almost 1,000 miles away it made it tough to juggle family, kids and everything else while still finding time to be with him. So when I couldn’t go out I would talk to him on the phone. We talked almost every day until he left us and I’m glad I made the selfish decision to hide from this world to be with him while he was with me in the real one.